Let me be honest here. Being on bed rest can be so boring. At first there is somewhat of some excitement. I get to lay in bed, watch TV, read books and blog all day long without kids interrupting? Whoa, I don’t even know how to act! Kids get shipped off to Grandma’s house and here I sit alone in bed. Nightstand full of snacks, books and a glass of water. Remote by my side and some candles lit. I take a breath and start my journey of bedrest. A few days pass and the heartache sets in. I miss the kids terribly that my heart hurts and I’m bored. I browse Pinterest for hours, blog on all the blogs I’m a part of, watch DVR and then what?
You see, I’m 28 weeks and have been getting treated for pre-term labor. I’m having contractions consistantly but not enough to dialate. I’m cramping a lot and it’s painful. The doctors are afraid that I will go into full labor if I’m up and moving around a lot. The more I’m up, the more I have contractions. I’ve had multiple shots of terbutaline, steriod treatments and next will be a magnesium treatment that requires hospitalization. Fun right? Not my cup of tea so, I will continue to be on bed rest to avoid the hospitalization.
My bed rest consists of my doctor and hospital nurses telling me I shouldn’t even be sitting up. While I was in the hospital a nurse told me that I either stay in bed at home and barely get up or I’ll be staying in bed at the hospital so choose one.
Being without my kids is really tough for me. I’m so used to being on a schedule. Cooking breakfast and packing lunch, getting them dressed, dropping the oldest off at school, ballet class for my daughter and running errands until it’s time to pick up my son from school. After that, it’s homework time, they play while I cook dinner, we eat, they get a bath, PJs, read some books, a cartoon then lights out. Everyday. Now that they are gone for a little bit, there is none of that and I feel so guilty. I don’t get to kiss them everyday and I miss out on little moments.
So I leave you with this quote.
“You will never have this day with your children again. Tomorrow, they will be a little older than they were today. This day is a gift. Breathe and notice. smell and touch them; study their faces and little feet and pay attention. Relish the charms of the present. Enjoy today mama. It will be over before you know it.” – Jen Hatmaker