Still heartbroken.


It’s been hard for me to tweet & blog lately—it just seems weird to do after we all endured such heartache last Friday.  My heart is still heavy,  I have had moments were I just breakdown.  However we have to look towards the future and how we can turn things around.  It truly is hard to remain positive when such an ugly negative situation occurred. I’m trying. 

I’m usually about love and light—I want to share laughter. 

I have been able to laugh.  I have been full of smiles.  I have enjoyed life.

Then I think of those families as my kids sing Christmas songs loud for all to hear.  As much as I am happy to hear this beautiful sound {my babies}. I get angry.  I’m angry.

I’m so angry. Not because I’m happy.  I’m angry that those families and those children aren’t.  I’m angry that the glory is given again to the assaulter instead of the victims.  I am angry we are giving him stats and comparing him to other mass murders before him.

I’m angry that it took this horrific situation for us to finally consider discussing mental health.  I’m not an expert on mental health but I do know a bit on the subject. Mental health is real and we have to come together to help parents help their children.  We cannot use the prison system as mental institution it doesn’t work.  I’m going to say this and this may upset some people

I’m angry with his mother.  I’m angry that she decided to teach her child to use these weapons.  Why?  Why would you allow your child who is known to have issues and spikes in behavior to use these weapons?  Why would you keep those weapons in your home.. or not have them locked away.

I’m angry that the possibility still remains this could happen again.  There is someone out there who may want to top him.  {I won’t give him a name here because the victims are who are important.}  

I think we need to rethink our media. we cannot feed into copycats.  These punks think they’re bad asses.  They’re not.  Bad ass isn’t wearing a bulletproof vest while haunting innocent souls. Bad Ass and tough that doesn’t belong to them

Victoria Soto who tried to shield those precious babies from him she is a HERO. Talk about her. 

Kaitlin Roig who protected and saved 15 students locking them in a bathroom and telling them to be very quiet.  She wouldn’t even open the door for the police. Let’s talk about her.

Maryrose Kristopik Music Teacher at Sandy Hook Elementary who saved all 20 of her students.  She locked all her students in a closet and barricaded the door—even when he demanded her to let him in Maryrose stood fast and saved her babies.  One mother of an 8 year-old student said this about Kristopik “”My daughter’s teacher is my hero,”

Jesse Lewis {6} Jesse died trying to help other students. Six years old and was so brave!  That is tough!

The first responders. Let’s talk about them.

We need to discuss all the victims stories and ENFORCE gun control. Do we really need military style assault riffles? 

I want us all to enjoy our Holiday but I want us all to remember all those heroes and their families.  If you have a link to help those families or the community please share below or email me and I will add it.  

If you would like to help here are a couple of links & Addresses:

Sandy Hook School Support Fund – Helping families effected by this terrible tragedy.

Noah’s Ark of Hope Fund- Noah was the youngest victim… he leaves behind 4 siblings including his best friend his twin sister.  Noah was full of life and reading his mother’s words on him touched me… 

Welcome Students to a Winter Wonderland When school resumes for Sandy Hook, it will be in a new building. Parent-volunteers are working to ensure that the students are welcomed back by a winter wonderland with the entire school decorated with as many unique snowflakes as possible. We encourage senders to be as creative as possible, remembering that no two snowflakes are alike. Please make and send snowflakes by January 12, 2013 to the Connecticut PTSA address at the end of this email.   

Connecticut PTSA
60 Connolly Parkway
Building 12, Suite 103
Hamden, CT 06514









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