Do you suffer from anxiety attacks or panic attacks? I have suffered all my life with bouts of anxiety. They usually come out of no where and last about 10-25 seconds however, those seconds feel like hours to me. I have been having them more and more frequently with in the last couple of weeks. The cause? I am in belief that it has a lot to do with the financial state in which we are currently living in. There is always an answer as to what to do or how to make things work, but for the first time in my life, I have no plan. I have no clue as to what to do or how to make things work. I am, shall I say, clueless and that scares me.
I started reading the book, “Ask and it is Given – Learning to Manifest Your Desires” by Esther and Jerry Hicks. I just started reading it last night and I am enjoying the read so far. I don’t have much to share at this point since I just started to read it, but I can share more on that later. I am hoping that by reading again this will help to place those anxious feelings on hold long enough for me to do some planning and budgeting.
I started to meditate yesterday as well. I am thinking that it will do my body, mind, soul good to just sit and be. Let my mind go in a relaxed and calm state and when the time is right, the answers to my questions will be answered. I was relaxed so much that I actually fell asleep! LOL
Today I will write all my hopes, dreams, desires down and hide it. I hope to check back later in life to see if I have reached those hopes and dreams. I will also do what Cilla posted about and that is to write a short term and long term budget and just leave it there for God. Release it and let the universe take over.
For now, I will stay off the expressways (since that triggers it a lot of the time) and I will no longer concentrate on my breathing when I am driving, lol. I will let it go, let it pass and move forward with my life. I have three children who depend on me for being there for them and being in one piece and that is what I intend on doing.
The other question I have yet to answer is how to manage my budding business and my family life. How can I not do it all? I am a mom…mom’s just always do it all. That is what we are taught, isn’t it? My husband is working as much as a human can, so I am left day and night to handle the household and baths, and homework, and cooking, cleaning, laundry, work, phone calls, emails, etc…how can it not all get done? What can be done to ease the load? Perhaps I can find an intern for the summer? Hmmm…more thinking is needed for this one!
Gee, can’t imagine why I have anxiety!