I Quit!!!!!!!

Now if I can just get my brain to quit that would be perfect!  I don’t know what it is or why I do it, but my brain never stops.  Like ever!  I’m always thinking and usually it’s about what I’ve forgotten to do or something negative about myself.  I can’t get it to shut off.  I just want it to stop.  I want to rid myself of the negative thoughts and I want to see the reflection of myself with all the positivity I try to express through my actions.

I know I’m a good person.  I know I try to do right by people.  I know that I am flexible with work, home and life in general.  I’m always happy and smiling while I’m out.  I am bubbly and outgoing.  Then I get home and something changes.  Then I start to wonder why I keep thinking the way I do.  What happened in my life that made the shift in my thought process?  I start to question everything that I have ever done in my life.  I question my relationship with my husband.  I question the job I have.  I question my business abilities.  I question my knowledge and ultimately my worth, both self and financial.  I question why I am stuck where I’m at.  I have so many questions and so few answers.

I have this postcard that I received from someone years ago with the quote, “Live the life you’ve imagined” by Henry David Thoreau and I see it every day in my office.  I’ve been staring at it the last few days and I’m asking myself, “Did I live the life I’ve imagined” today?  The answer is usually yes, but it comes with an exception clause.  I have lived the day the best that I could and with that, I have lived the life I’ve imagined.  Today is over and while it was a pretty shitty day, I survived.  I’m grateful for that.

How do you turn off the negative thoughts in your mind?